Texas Sized Butterflies

I’m on the fence post.

Do I back out again?  Do I go forward?

Last year, I chickened out from meeting with the publishing agent.  I felt so ill equipped.   ((Sigh))  And guess what??  It is time for me to make the decision as to whether or not I am ready to meet the agent.  I must register by Friday.  Ahem….. butterflies the size of Texas are already settling in my stomach.  I am feeling so unprepared and scared.

Satan keeps whispering, “You’re not a writer worth publishing.”

“You will never be published.”

“Your are just one in a million who are failing as a writer.”

“You can’t do this.”

This has penned me inward.  I am starting to busy myself with stuff so I have the excuse of “I’m not ready.”  If I fill up my schedule, I won’t have the proposal done and then I can say…..maybe next  year.


I am trying so hard to just focus on God’s big picture.  There’s got to be a lesson in here somewhere.  He’s going to teach me something from the meeting.  Maybe He will open a door.  Maybe a blessing will rain down.  How will I know if I sabotage?

I need God’s exterminating ability to squash those butterflies.  (I just laughed thinking…. hmmmm never thought God would hear me call Him the Almighty Exterminator!)

I hope you enjoy your Monday.  It is so hard to believe July is this week!  Please keep me in your prayers.

God bless…….


3 thoughts on “Texas Sized Butterflies

  1. Learn to ride the butterflies so you can soar with eagles! You have to go for it. It’s ok to be scared but after the first time, you realize they’re just people like us (and some of them are idiots!) God won’t open doors that don’t get knocked on. I’m rooting for you.


  2. So bummed I won’t be at She Speaks this year! Last year was the first time I attended. Great conference.

    If Satan is pestering you that much, then you must have something special that only you can share, and he wants to make sure it doesn’t happen.

    Remember…fear is false expectations appearing real…

    Make that appointment!


  3. Make that appointment! YOU ARE SO GIFTED AND TALENTED. Turn each of Satan’s ploys around to what God would say; You are worth it, you can be published, you can do it and Yes, girlfriend you certainly are one in a million, and that’s what Satan is afraid of! Hugs!


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