Yesterday, one of my favorite authors, Ann Voskamp, posted a message on her blog that may have changed my life.
Sunday night, I couldn’t sleep under the pressure of knowing that I couldn’t find my shovel. My heart was heavy with this burden and I felt ashamed, confused, and estranged. I was ready to claw my ditches into existence with my bare hands.
Ann’s post, handed me my shovel. It was under the heap of life. Work, kids, house, projects, grocery lists, to do lists, husband, church…….. life. A single word, Radaph, placed that shovel back into my hand.
It means “Chase, pursue, hunt down, run after” and it is found in this little nugget of a verse…..
Only [God’s] goodness and faithful love will pursue me
all the days of my life…. Ps 23:6 HCSB
In the NIV the text says follow but in the original language the word RADAPH is used. To follow means in my mind to be like a shadow. There. Present. But…. If God’s goodness and love is hunting me down, that is a whole other story.
I may be busy with life but God is hunting me down….. chasing me down! Like I have down when I was busy with life in a grocery store isle and discovered my child had toddled away from me. I dropped everything and chased after. I wasn’t resting until my babe was back in my sight or in my arms.
I’ve toddled away. And every day, God is pursuing me, regardless. My shovel is back in my hand. I’m digging my ditch among the trenches of life. It won’t be long before God’s arms pulls me in close because He is a pursuing Father who has chased down this wayward toddler.