Obsessed

We have a puppy.  She is the cutest thing.

But. She’s a puppy.

Chews everything insight.  My kids say she’s obsessed with chewing.  I explain that it is in her nature.

Recently, I have been behaving like our puppy.  No, I am not chewing up everything insight.  But, I am like a dog with a bone.  Obsessed.  Something that’s in my nature.

This obsession has taken over my every thought.  I am consumed with it.  I play it out in my head over and over and over.  I can’t sleep.  Unfortunately, I eat and eat and eat.  I am so far behind on the household chores that I am drowning in a sea of dirty clothes.

This obsession has gotten the best of me.

Here’s the thing.  Along with this obsession came a major disappointment.  I’ve had a few here and there but not like this one.  I had a choice just like when I had the minor disappointments:  1.  Hand it over to God  2.  Go completely insane trying to fix it or change the outcome.

Of course, you are going to know right off the bat which one a I chose.  Ahem…..  #2

Now remember yesterday’s post on Patience?  Boy did God test me out.  And DID I EVER fail.  I went with my nature.  Once again, I took over God’s job.  I kinda pushed Him aside and said, “Let me do it.”

One roadblock after another.  And after each one, the more obsessed I became.  Then it dawned on me…..  I needed to go to time out.  I did and prayed for forgiveness.  It is time for me to stay out of the way.  Let God do His thing.  On HIS timetable.

In the meantime, I have a few loads of laundry to do!

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