We have a puppy. She is the cutest thing.
But. She’s a puppy.
Chews everything insight. My kids say she’s obsessed with chewing. I explain that it is in her nature.
Recently, I have been behaving like our puppy. No, I am not chewing up everything insight. But, I am like a dog with a bone. Obsessed. Something that’s in my nature.
This obsession has taken over my every thought. I am consumed with it. I play it out in my head over and over and over. I can’t sleep. Unfortunately, I eat and eat and eat. I am so far behind on the household chores that I am drowning in a sea of dirty clothes.
This obsession has gotten the best of me.
Here’s the thing. Along with this obsession came a major disappointment. I’ve had a few here and there but not like this one. I had a choice just like when I had the minor disappointments: 1. Hand it over to God 2. Go completely insane trying to fix it or change the outcome.
Of course, you are going to know right off the bat which one a I chose. Ahem….. #2
Now remember yesterday’s post on Patience? Boy did God test me out. And DID I EVER fail. I went with my nature. Once again, I took over God’s job. I kinda pushed Him aside and said, “Let me do it.”
One roadblock after another. And after each one, the more obsessed I became. Then it dawned on me….. I needed to go to time out. I did and prayed for forgiveness. It is time for me to stay out of the way. Let God do His thing. On HIS timetable.
In the meantime, I have a few loads of laundry to do!