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A Heart-to-Heart and a Plan

A dear friend, concerned.  Understood last week’s yuckiness. Over diet soda’s she shares and builds me up.

You tell yourself all the negatives.

I agree.

You never see what good you do.

I look off.  Uncomfortable.  Do I do good?

You hear a critic and you latch to those negative words.

I look down.  Uncomfortable in my own skin.

Truth in those words, I hear.

Surround yourself with the positive.

I agree to.

Boundaries I need.  Affirmations I long for.

Embrace. Give. Love. Serve.

The small echo in my heart.  Cracks in my harden heart gorge from truths.  Rid yourselves of all the offenses you have committed and get a new heart and a new spirit.  Ezekiel 18:31  Rid myself from the negatives. Rid myself of the hurtful words.  Rid myself of the impurities found in binge eating. Rid myself.  Embrace the new heart and spirit.

2 Corinthians 12:9-11 “But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness…. For when I am weak, then I am strong.'”

His grace.  His love. This everlasting love is sufficient for me.  I don’t need empty calories, guilt, nor negatives.  God weakened me last week.  So I may be strong.

Give yourself away…. one pound at a time.

Love given so I may love myself

Serve God.  Serve others.  In order to forgive myself.

Earthly weakness….. God’s strength for me to grasp onto.

Embrace it. “For I am the Lord, your God who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, ‘Do not fear; I will help you.”  Isaiah 41:13 

Embrace. Give. Love. Serve

So God put it on my heart.  Confirmed with Ann Voskamp.  I need to plan my days better.  It is all a part of forming a habit.  (And our Pastor’s sermon summed it up for me….Jesus in the middle of it.)

Planning my meals.  Planning my daily routine.  Planning everything…. my prayer time, Bible readings, and my water in-take.  Ann Voskamp has two planning guides that are helpful.  Take a look. You will have to scroll down to the Weekends are for planning post.

Now, for the important note of the day.  We walked  49.98 miles. We’ve walked a total of 103.44 miles. This week we ended up near Eddington, ME. We’re 3.06% of the way there!

God bless……

For the Love of Me

For the life of me, I can’t figure out where I lost the love for me.  

I’ve searched my soul through and through.  Still, my love remains lost.  

Or misplaced.

Evidence of misplacement haunts my image in the mirror.

Maybe I left it in the pantry behind the box of cookies.  Or in the peanut butter jar. I’ve searched there.  Still, my love remains lost.

I tell myself such harsh words.

Failure.

Ugly.

Obese.

Scorned I feel without my love. Empty from all the replacements.

Okay.  Now. I’m going to be real.  Just for a moment.  All that I typed this morning scared me.  It is something I don’t like to admit.  Me.  Not loving myself.  In fact,as soon as I began writing,  the spiritual pain in my stomach overwhelmed me.

I got up from my computer.  I had plans to talk about how I was going to embrace this….. and move forward.

Instead I reached for lunch.  I mean. It was 11 and the tension from this honesty grabbed me in the gut.

I ate.  Not healthy.  I ate.  I ate.  I ate.

Hungry?  No.

Disgusted with how much I loath myself? Yes.

Did I call a friend?  No

Did I stuff? Yes.

Empty calories.  Empty soul.  Empty from within.

My mind screams, “Oh God! What have I done?”  My hands cover my face.  I feel so twisted and unlike myself.

Unearthed.

Whispers so loud I can’t hear myself think.

Unearthed.  My lost love buried down deep. The crusty hardened layers are cracking.  The love pushing through.  It scares me. I don’t know how to love myself.

4 affirmations…. I read this morning from Ann Voskamp.  The thought weaved itself into me.

Embrace. Give. Love. Serve.

4 affirmations a day to myself.  Simple. Give acknowledgement of the love God sees in me.

I am….

creative.

a giver of great hugs.

My chin resting in my palm.  This is so hard.

a lover of words.

a friend.

4 affirmations.

Embrace. Faith that with Christ I can change.

Embrace Faith.

God bless…..

 

 

To Be or To Buy?

That is exactly what Ann Voskamp asked me today from the screen of her blog….

Yesterday’s icky-sticky humidity made me grumpy.  My hair (trying to grow it out) fell limp against the heavy moist air.  My bangs drove me crazy.  Actually it is the cow licks I am blessed with that is actually driving me crazy.  Bobbi pins didn’t help.  Hairspray?  Nope.  A good tease?  No…. thought I was going to break the comb, though.

Deciding to live with it, I stepped into the closet.  Ugh! Sticky, sweaty, yucky…. Jean?  Too hot.  T-shirt?  Too frumpy.  Blouse?  Not in the mood.  Yuck! Yuck! Yuck!

I grabbed insecurity and settled down with a Good Housekeeping Magazine. Within the pages of “Perfect Hair Techniques” and “The Perfect Fall Fashions,” insecurity whispered and I was ready to head to the store.  What those pages had, I wanted.

I wanted to buy beauty.

That simple.

Thanks Ann.  Thanks for being the venue in which God thumps me hard.  Your words this morning struck a cord with what I battled yesterday.

So often we are in the business of separating the materialistic and spiritual sides of our being.  My heart sometimes looks like a Wal-Mart floor plan.  On one side I have ministry.  The other, my addiction to soda.  There’s God’s Word here and my love for shoes there. God’s part and MY half.

What does it mean to be beautiful?  Is it clothing?  Is it a hair cut?  Is it goop we slap on our faces?

Or is it…… helping a friend in need?  Sending a I Love You note to a loved one?  Feeding the hungry?  Holding a fragile hand? Helping an injured creature?

Is beauty bought? Or is it to be?

Is it a selfish want?  Or is it a humble state of being?

Is it packaged and sold?  Or is it living a purposeful life?

Jesus said, “And why do you worry about clothes?  See how the lilies of the field grow.  They do not labor or spin.  Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these.” Matthew 6:28-29

Oh, yeah…… lilies….. being beautiful.  They don’t buy their beauty.

Be beautiful today….. God bless……

Perks to Gratitude

Okay, Thanksgiving is just around the corner and for the past few days several of my bloggie friends have been making lists of God given gifts.  It warms my heart to know that some of you out there are taking my 300 gifts challenge.

Now, if you haven’t already felt good about your lists of gifts, this bit of information may add to your happiness.  There was a study done in Manchester, England.  401 adults were asked to fill out a questionnaire about their gratitude.  What was found was intriguing.  Those that scored higher slept better and longer than those where were so grateful.

It was discovered that folks that had a routine of making thankful lists or those who just lived life with a grateful heart did not have negative thoughts that nagged them while trying to fall asleep….. and they didn’t awaken in a panic either.

Now isn’t that something!!  Food for thought, huh??

Today’s list:

1.  90% off sales

2.  completed Christmas lists

3.  Shoe Fly Pie

4.  board games

5.  Silly kids

6.  Eating breakfast out with family

7.  tender-hearted boys

8.  Pizza Hut Pizza

9.  Sunday School

10.  Great Sermons

Now, tomorrow is the big day……  get your name in the drawing for Ann Voskamp’s book, One Thousand Gifts, and an Advent wreath.  Tomorrow I will be announcing the winner of the random drawing.

Enjoy your Monday.  Make a list and sleep tight tonight!  God bless…….

Thankfulness

I pondered what to write today.  I stared at the screen….. nothing came.  I wondered what on earth could keep me from writing.  I worried that the blankness on the screen was the true reflection of my brain today.

Then I remembered Ann Voskamp’s story of how she overcame her personal “stuckness” in life.  She met a challenge of writing down 1000 gifts from God.  A list that changed her life forever.

To be thankful for every little thing.  To praise God for all He gives.  To possess an attitude of gratefulness that affects lives.

Isn’t that what the month of November symbolizes?  Giving thanks??

Are you in the mood of a challenge?  What if you wrote down 10 gifts from God each day?  That would be 300 for the month of November……  Would it be wonderful to see how much God has blessed us?

Tell you what…. Comment each day and post your top 2 gifts, I will put your name in the drawing for Ann Voskamp’s book, One Thousand Gifts, and an Advent wreath.  The drawing will be held one week from today.  (Nov. 8, 2011).  The more you comment the more your name is in the drawing.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

My list of 10 for today:

1.  the alarm clock

2.  the soft purr of a kitten

3.  Ginger’s cold wet nose

4.  Fred’s snuggle time

5.  chocolate/pumpkin muffins baking in the oven

6.  Mark’s early morning coffee routine

7.  tribal grunts from sleepy kids

8.  breakfast as a family

9.  good-bye kisses

10.  the silence after the morning rush

Enjoy your Tuesday….. God bless…….

 


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