While I was enjoying the She Speaks Conference in Concord, NC, my family and friends back in Arkansas enjoyed 106 degree heat. But, this blog isn’t about the weather….. Nope. I wish it was that simple. I would much rather talk weather than confess something heavy on my heart.
The conference inspired me beyond words. I learned so much. I heard such wonderful speakers like Lysa TerKeurst, Angela Thomas, and Beth Moore. Each delivered a message that moved me. But it wasn’t until the last speaker, Karen Ehman, that the heat was turned up.
I told Mark that afternoon after hearing her message that Moses had the burning bush and I had the burning tush. God built a big old fire under my tush! He usually just thumps me on the noggin but this time He burned me.
Karen Ehman’s message was centered around Revelation 2:4-5.
Yet I hold this against you: You have forsaken your first love. Remember the height from which you have fallen! Repent and do the things you did at first. If you do not repent, I will come to you and remove your lampstand from its place.
To make a long sermon short, she pointed out that when you lose sight of your first ministry love. Life perhaps gets in the way….. you feel burned out….. God only knows the reason….. But, when you forsake your first love; you fall. She explained that repenting and going back to the things you did at first is what God wants. If we don’t then He will remove the lampstand. As she explained, the lampstand is what the bright light of God in our lives sits upon. He will remove the stand and the light goes out.
I hate to admit it but I let the smallest trivial things get in the way of God’s ministry in my life. I avoid doing leg work to find speaking engagements by doing laundry. I hide from the fear of failure by scrubbing floors. I eat and shop to hide my anxiety. Add everything up, and I forsake my first love.
God pointed out that I needed to get to work and stop wasting time by filling up my day with stuff. I’m not saying I am never going to do housework again. But simply find the balance of it all. ((sigh)) And I thought I was doing well with the whole quest of balance. Praise God I have a new beginning each day!!